Introduction

Hello Everyone,

I received an email saying that I should tell you guys about myself. Well here goes nothing...

I am a 22 yr old lesbian in the USA. Currently unemployed & sharing an apt with my Ex girlfriend. I love to read & write. Mostly everyone who meets me says i should write a book with all the stories i have to tell about my life so far. I came out of the closet (more like fell out) when I was 14 yrs old. My passion is children & my 1st love is music. I dont have any kids tho. I wish!!

I am in a new relationship with a wonderfully complicated woman in the military. She makes me smile & she makes me feel wanted & needed. We met in high school. I was in the 10th & she was in the (th. she says she remembers the 1st day she laid eyes on me. She says she was amazed @ the beautiful sassy brown skinned girl on the bus with the big bold personality. I still cant believe to this day that she was at all interested in me. Funny thing is, i was extremely attracted to her sexy chocolate skin & beautiful smile. I wanted to say something bck then bt I couldnt muster up the courage lol. So nothing was ever said bck then... she left the school after that yrs & we never saw each other again..... until FACEBOOK!! & the rest is history. We've been dating now for some months. I wish I could tell you how many bt I sorta dont know because we kinda just fell into the relationship & never made any official date.

However there is a strain on our relationship. You would think that it is because I still live in a 1bed/1bath with my ex bt nooo... You would think that it would be the fact that she is in the military on the other side of the country bt nopeee... Its actually because she is.... well she doesnt know how to be herself & be in the military. Now this is not my 1st relationship with a woman in the service. I dated a woman for 3 yrs who was in the service & that relationship ended because she decided to stay with her wife. (their relationship ended shortly after that ironically & now she wants me back) but thats another story for another day.

I keep wondering to myself if I am ready or willing to deal with the strain on this relationship. I love her very much & I want to stay by her side bt I dont know how much of this I can take. She hates her job for a million reasons & she wants to not have to be in the military bt lets face it, in this economy, you get in where you fit in.

I find myself fightin my natural instincts to run & hide. Instead I tell her how much I was to fight for her & to love her despite my fears. & now here comes the holidays & we cant be together & i could definitely careless to spend it with my family or my exes family.

Well anyway... I should probably sign off.

til next time

Signing off,
anonymousdyke
xoxo